Spoken like a true Cuckoldress....Ky_Da wrote: .....Love,” she said, her tone much more serious, “you need to understand that Wade does get me off sexually, and I really enjoy the game we play, but the only way this works for me is that I have to make myself think of you, even when I’m having sex with Wade—especially when I’m having sex with Wade. I think of you watching the videos, or looking at the pictures, or even when we’re at home and I know you’re watching from close by… I get pleasure in knowing that I’m scratching your itch, too,” she paused in thought again, “Thinking of you makes sure that my heart stays with you and helps me think of my time with Wade as just a physical thing—a time when I can let my slutty side out for a while. But sometimes things get a bit too intense, and I get lost in the moment…”
She is right you know Ky, no need to rush any decision.Ky_Da wrote: She didn’t answer me for a long moment, but finally she nodded slowly, almost imperceptibly, “I feel like total shite saying this now, but yes, I still want to see Wade… bloody hell… I’ve been trying to push those feelings away, but I like the way it makes me feel. I like working out with him, I like having sex with him, I like teasing you while I’m doing it and seeing your reaction. And… and the more—rather, the longer it goes on, the more I like it. I don’t love him, Ky. Not like I love you, but he’s been good to me and I do care for him.” Again, I was about to speak but she rolled right over me, “Don’t suggest anything, Ky. Don’t say anything right now—not today. I want to go to the gym tomorrow, but I’ll only work out. We need to take some time. We don’t need to make a decision today or jump into something we’re not ready for.”
Incredible to be able to follow your dialogue with Jaimee, I sort of sense that your love for your Wife is steadily increasing, as is the mutual understanding of the needs and wants of the two of you. Most beautiful of all is how your Wife is strengthening your acceptance of Her love for you that will hopefully eventually reach the right conclusion on how to move on.
Sincere regards
elina