Feminized cuckold - others?

[Christinebitg]

I use estrogen cream Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. It has caused my nipples to hurt as they are budding, what I had a penis has gotten very small, the boys have atrovid, I have hot flashes, I think like a women, I get emotional and cry for about anything. I like wearing women’s panties and I’m currently looking for bras without much success.

You might consider the Third Love bra site. They're a little pricey, but high quality.

And they'll put you on their mailing list. It can be annoying, but it's lovely to see the bras that they're selling.

xoxoxo

Christine

[PANTIES]

Christine,

Thanks for the info. I’ll check this out. The panties I buy are $29 a pair from Secrets and Lace.

Pauline

[emerald74]

I love all of this, thank you all for those sweet comments.

I am away for a conference and naturally, in a safe foreign space, love to indulge. Would love to share pics but don't know how to here.

Connected to her while I was gone and she is spending continuous time with him and I am perpetually turned on by it. I masturbate to them having intimate, uninterrupted sex - while I am here dressing up and showing myself to strangers hoping to find a nice guy to fuck me...

That's me, who was more alpha-ish just a few years ago, wearing panties, lingerie, corsett, looking for cock, not even wasting looks on other women..

[emerald74]

I also notice.. - I have watched a lot of porn over the years. Straight, some lesbian (so hot), then bi porn, then cuckold porn, more and more intense, then porn of wives filming their men have give hj, then bj, then have sex with their bulls or other males...
Now I almost exclusively watch sissy or gay porn, the latter of which she actually insist on... I cum best, or easiest now to gay or gay sissy porn...

[PANTIES]

A female friend told me I climax in my panties just like females. That’s one of the causes of estrogen. The first time I did I was in sexual bliss. Now that my MIL knows my wife hasa lover and I’m her feminine cuckold she wants to see my panties and will fondle me until I climax in her hand.

The first time she did that was at Christmas dinner and I sat there with cum soaked panties. Now it happens when ever we visit. She and I have alone time. Yes my wife knows.

Pauline

[liv2gag]

Feminized, definitely. But not so much the seeking of men to play with exclusively. i play with men quite regularly now, but it is always as more of a component of humiliation/sissification, not so much a full-on 'gay' attraction to men. Although, there are really VERY few things i have not done with men. For me, it's most about the humiliation, debasing myself before both men and women and allowing them to see me as utterly less than a man.

[tractorman2]

I have been feminized by my wife a cuckoldress for many years, it suited her as it ensured my loyality to her and she has always said i like it too, which i do.

It started with a CB, then being told i would always wear ladies knickers/panties from then on. Quickly followed by painted toe nails and a permanent collar. Over the next year or so suspenders as a treat and finally being bought tight ladies jeans. She likes these as she says my ass looks cute in them. I have always liked wearing tight jeans for some reason, i stared in my teens.

So whilst the suspenders are a treat, the rest is my normal daily allocation.

She has asked me if i was Bi, and said she had wondered over the years and wouldnt have a problem if i was and never would have, thats stretching the truth i will say as shes always been jealous until she did the above.

I have always selected men for her consideration as lovers and have always weeded out those that said they were Bi, maybe a mistake really. As i entered my late 40s i started wondering when turned on and locked what it would be like to stand as a man cupped my ass in my tight female jeans and sucked and drain my balls.

Needless to say as the desire subsides so i have never followed through with this and as i am locked permanently it would be difficult too.

[emerald74]

Thank you for all your nice messages. Not much new here except that things keep moving forward in the predictable direcion.
Her and me have not had sex in six months now, while she is absolutely having regular sex with her bull (and possibly others). She loves me, I love her - just sex she has with others - and that keeps turning me on.

Following her directions, I have not had sex with any/another female ever since we directed this way. With (a few) men, yes, and that is what she wants, while she is having her bull(s). It is almost exactly 6 months now and I don't love her/ or she doesn't love me any less. She "just" has sex with other men, while I am restricted to only have sex with other men either.
I kinda love this. It is as if a true deep desire is being forced out and encouraged while love is being untouched. Very sexy, in a way.

I should also say, I have made some great connections to some very supportive friends which love the female side of me all this is forcing out. Some gifts, pieces of outfits, things I get to wear, support to appear for feminine in public... it is becoming a big deal, and I love it..

[Showoffcouple]

x

[emerald74]

A little update here: following her direction, I just had a vasectomy. Being in my late 40s I understand that's nothing unusual - except for the context. For me, it was a new next step not necessarily in feminization, but in demasculation - and I am having a hard time not giving in to the urge playing with myself within the recommended 7-day period.
I know it's not going to affect my "manhood" - but I feel like it absolutely is, and am turned on for more. All these things are going in one and the same direction, and it turns me on...

7 months without (her or any) pussy, at this point exusively wearing female underwear and often clothing, feeling a step closer to being/more emasculated/brought to feminization, and in general, feeling manifested in her bulls being the only "men" fucking her.

Wishing for positive feedback, I am feeling great and incredibly on the right path for myself.

[Carlbiinchicago]

I definitely have a strong fem side as well as i am bi.

I always get conflicted between wanting muscles or being more feminine. Fortunately i dont build muscle too quickly and going to crossfit has helped me meet women stronger than me who have muscle and feminity which i want also

She accepted me shaving my legs and knew i liked to wear panties but ive been embarassed to let her see my panties in the laundry and i wouldnt wear then often and id laundry them myself

[Lucky Dog]

I'm not feminine, although I've had fantasies about that on occasion. I do often fantasize that my wife would emasculate me so she could give herself to a bull, just from the point of view of being made more submissive and being controlled. I wouldn't feel I was feminine but ruined as a male. But the problem is I'd never want that to ruin our love or our marriage.

[PANTIES]

My wife has no issues washing my panties, she hangs them with hers to dry. She has accepted my desire to be feminine. Part of her acceptance is we bo longer sleep together. Her lover is the only man in her bed. I’ve accepted my role of not sleeping together but I did a lot of crying. Damn estrogen!

Pauline

[MassMinuteman]

A little update here: following her direction, I just had a vasectomy. Being in my late 40s I understand that's nothing unusual - except for the context. For me, it was a new next step not necessarily in feminization, but in demasculation - and I am having a hard time not giving in to the urge playing with myself within the recommended 7-day period.
I know it's not going to affect my "manhood" - but I feel like it absolutely is, and am turned on for more. All these things are going in one and the same direction, and it turns me on...

7 months without (her or any) pussy, at this point exusively wearing female underwear and often clothing, feeling a step closer to being/more emasculated/brought to feminization, and in general, feeling manifested in her bulls being the only "men" fucking her.

Wishing for positive feedback, I am feeling great and incredibly on the right path for myself.

I am sad to say that is probably the first step to total removal of your genitals to turn you over totally to a female and for her to have his baby. Wish you luck.

[PANTIES]

A little update here: following her direction, I just had a vasectomy. Being in my late 40s I understand that's nothing unusual - except for the context. For me, it was a new next step not necessarily in feminization, but in demasculation - and I am having a hard time not giving in to the urge playing with myself within the recommended 7-day period.
I know it's not going to affect my "manhood" - but I feel like it absolutely is, and am turned on for more. All these things are going in one and the same direction, and it turns me on...

7 months without (her or any) pussy, at this point exusively wearing female underwear and often clothing, feeling a step closer to being/more emasculated/brought to feminization, and in general, feeling manifested in her bulls being the only "men" fucking her.

Wishing for positive feedback, I am feeling great and incredibly on the right path for myself.

I have not had pussy for three years, I absolutely enjoy wearing my panties 24/7. I’ve been using estrogen for two years. I’ve been emasculated as a male. If it where possible I would have castration and the nut sack removed so it’s smooth down there.

My wife has taken a lover not just a boyfriend but who is the man in life and bed. She has completely changed her appearance physically and she dresses for him.

This is what I have wanted in life and life is too short not to do what you want.

Pauline

[emerald74]

Another new development:
she wants me to get on hormones, or at least hormone cremes, to grow breasts, reduce hair (and I am already waxed head to toe) and shrink dick. I am eager(!) to comply (She made me write this last sentence).
Any feedback on that, please? She is reading this. Thank you all.

[Christinebitg]

Another new development:
she wants me to get on hormones, or at least hormone cremes, to grow breasts, reduce hair (and I am already waxed head to toe) and shrink dick. I am eager(!) to comply (She made me write this last sentence).
Any feedback on that, please? She is reading this. Thank you all.

Aside from how eager she tells you to say that you are... What are your other thoughts on it?

Have you looked into how things actually go with female hormones, such as estrogen? (Just an FYI, it's my favorite drug!)

Breast development usually lags. It's one of the slowest things, and doesn't normally give us knockers as big as we might wish.

Are either of you interested in having you make a full time gender transition? I would, except when we discussed the possibility, she said she's against it.

[emerald74]

Another new development:
she wants me to get on hormones, or at least hormone cremes, to grow breasts, reduce hair (and I am already waxed head to toe) and shrink dick. I am eager(!) to comply (She made me write this last sentence).
Any feedback on that, please? She is reading this. Thank you all.

Aside from how eager she tells you to say that you are... What are your other thoughts on it?

Have you looked into how things actually go with female hormones, such as estrogen? (Just an FYI, it's my favorite drug!)

Breast development usually lags. It's one of the slowest things, and doesn't normally give us knockers as big as we might wish.

Are either of you interested in having you make a full time gender transition? I would, except when we discussed the possibility, she said she's against it.

I can think of nothing else more often...

I was thinking about hormone creams forever, to have nicer, bigger breasts (pics of me feminized on fetlife for those who are interested), but the more I think about it, the more I want more. Thinking HRT and to really transition. ACHING for feedback from the community here, made an appointment for a consulting/counseling appointment today.

[MassMinuteman]

Another new development:
she wants me to get on hormones, or at least hormone cremes, to grow breasts, reduce hair (and I am already waxed head to toe) and shrink dick. I am eager(!) to comply (She made me write this last sentence).
Any feedback on that, please? She is reading this. Thank you all.

Aside from how eager she tells you to say that you are... What are your other thoughts on it?

Have you looked into how things actually go with female hormones, such as estrogen? (Just an FYI, it's my favorite drug!)

Breast development usually lags. It's one of the slowest things, and doesn't normally give us knockers as big as we might wish.

Are either of you interested in having you make a full time gender transition? I would, except when we discussed the possibility, she said she's against it.

I can think of nothing else more often...

I was thinking about hormone creams forever, to have nicer, bigger breasts (pics of me feminized on fetlife for those who are interested), but the more I think about it, the more I want more. Thinking HRT and to really transition. ACHING for feedback from the community here, made an appointment for a consulting/counseling appointment today.

In my previous post I predicted you would get total removal of your genitals and now it looks like I was right. All the best

[Mypopsocks66]

Another new development:
she wants me to get on hormones, or at least hormone cremes, to grow breasts, reduce hair (and I am already waxed head to toe) and shrink dick. I am eager(!) to comply (She made me write this last sentence).
Any feedback on that, please? She is reading this. Thank you all.

I think you will love the feeling of the estrogen absorbed into your body through the creams. After that there will be no stopping you if you are in an encouraging environment. I think the creams will make you an even hornier girl. x

[Christinebitg]

Another new development:
she wants me to get on hormones, or at least hormone cremes, to grow breasts, reduce hair (and I am already waxed head to toe) and shrink dick. I am eager(!) to comply (She made me write this last sentence).
Any feedback on that, please? She is reading this. Thank you all.

Aside from how eager she tells you to say that you are... What are your other thoughts on it?

Have you looked into how things actually go with female hormones, such as estrogen? (Just an FYI, it's my favorite drug!)

Breast development usually lags. It's one of the slowest things, and doesn't normally give us knockers as big as we might wish.

Are either of you interested in having you make a full time gender transition? I would, except when we discussed the possibility, she said she's against it.

I can think of nothing else more often...

I was thinking about hormone creams forever, to have nicer, bigger breasts (pics of me feminized on fetlife for those who are interested), but the more I think about it, the more I want more. Thinking HRT and to really transition. ACHING for feedback from the community here, made an appointment for a consulting/counseling appointment today.

It sounds to me like you're doing the right thing by going to a counseling appointment.

I often wish I had pursued that further, years ago. Not that I couldn't make a transition now (I'm 69) but it's less pressing emotionally in some ways. And at my age, I'm probably not a great candidate for any surgery.

Not that surgery is a requirement. Transition without surgery has been gaining in acceptance quite a lot these days, a trend that I'm highly in favor of.

[MallardStreet-3]

I've been on HRT for about 3 years now, but only in the past year, really in the past 9 months, have I gone up from a low to a moderate dose. My journey has been a long one and very hard at times. In all seriousness, making this transition is an incredibly difficult thing, but since I've started coming out into the world, I've become much happier and healthier, which is obvious to anyone who knows me. I've lost about 40 lb and feel very good and have quit drinking, too. I'm 49. I struggle deeply with whether I am doing this too late in life, but at this point I feel like I've gone down the road so far there is no turning back, and that is both frightening and exhilarating at the same time. While I do want to see my (current for now) spouse with another man, it's not so much a sexual fantasy of mine as it is a true and sincere desire to see somebody I love made happy and made whole in ways I not cannot provide and really don't want to anymore, either. Also, I prefer to sleep with men, though I am very emotionally attracted to women and I find I am far more ease when in their company. I went on HRT only after therapy, and I went into therapy because I had a huge breakdown from living two lives, and I just couldn't do it anymore. I understand all of this is perhaps a bit dark for some, but it is real life and I am finally feeling at peace with myself for the first time perhaps ever. I don't know if any of this helps anybody, but I'd be happy to discuss more if you DM me. I don't pretend to be any sort of expert in any of this, and not a day goes by when I don't wonder. But then I look at before and after pictures of myself, and I see how much happier I am now versus then, and there is just no doubt at all that this is the right path for me.
Jaime

[Christinebitg]

I'm 49. I struggle deeply with whether I am doing this too late in life
...
I prefer to sleep with men, though I am very emotionally attracted to women and I find I am far more ease when in their company.

I'm 69, so I'm 20 years older than you. I wish I had done it 20 years ago, which is where you are now.

I think you'll find that many cis (non-trans) women feel the same. That they're sexually attracted to men, but more comfortable in the company of women. There are certainly a lot of legitimate reasons why that's the case. And for trans women, I think that issue may be **more** significant, due to certain risks being higher.

[emerald74]

I've been on HRT for about 3 years now, but only in the past year, really in the past 9 months, have I gone up from a low to a moderate dose. My journey has been a long one and very hard at times. In all seriousness, making this transition is an incredibly difficult thing, but since I've started coming out into the world, I've become much happier and healthier, which is obvious to anyone who knows me. I've lost about 40 lb and feel very good and have quit drinking, too. I'm 49. I struggle deeply with whether I am doing this too late in life, but at this point I feel like I've gone down the road so far there is no turning back, and that is both frightening and exhilarating at the same time. While I do want to see my (current for now) spouse with another man, it's not so much a sexual fantasy of mine as it is a true and sincere desire to see somebody I love made happy and made whole in ways I not cannot provide and really don't want to anymore, either. Also, I prefer to sleep with men, though I am very emotionally attracted to women and I find I am far more ease when in their company. I went on HRT only after therapy, and I went into therapy because I had a huge breakdown from living two lives, and I just couldn't do it anymore. I understand all of this is perhaps a bit dark for some, but it is real life and I am finally feeling at peace with myself for the first time perhaps ever. I don't know if any of this helps anybody, but I'd be happy to discuss more if you DM me. I don't pretend to be any sort of expert in any of this, and not a day goes by when I don't wonder. But then I look at before and after pictures of myself, and I see how much happier I am now versus then, and there is just no doubt at all that this is the right path for me.
Jaime

My gosh, I thank you so much for your post! Not too dark at all, just authentic and real.
THIS is why I started this thread, I had a feeling I'd not be alone with this.
I am turning 48 this summer and I have the same thoughts, wishing I had taken this path WAY earlier, but I didn't, it just took this time, and all those little nudges on the way.
There is no turning back for me either, HRT or not, it's just not from the feeling I have about myself.
It all started with wearing panties, then the cuckolding part, then the "finding my place in a different world" that just seemed right and sexy and peaceful for many reasons.
It would probably not have happened had it not been for the cuckolding "fetish", which I now realize is just a part of my sexuality.
So, not dark at all. It all should just be beautiful. I struggle with it all the time, but just this week I was out at a local gay bar all, ALL dressed up, with makeup and wig and all, and most of all, by myself, on my own account and desire, and it was amazing.
I was greeted so lovingly and positively - I felt like I was home, finally. Happy to share some of the pics, just not sure how to, but it was life changing and a life opener.
My path is clear to me.
I love her having sex with her lover, I have not had sex with her since last November. We might have sex again at some point, but it will be different. I'll always be her Cuckold, but moreover, I'll always be myself. She nudged me there, knowing me better than I did, and I am Chloe. And fucking happy.
And I'm sure I'm not the only one here feeling these ways.

[Christinebitg]

<< It would probably not have happened had it not been for the cuckolding "fetish", which I now realize is just a part of my sexuality.>>

I've often said that I'd love to get married to a guy and be his wife.

And that I would not require him to be faithful to me. In fact, I would prefer that he not be. I'd encourage him to chase women and fuck all the pussy that he could catch.