thisis4us1125 wrote: ↑Sat Jul 25, 2020 8:34 am
Wow, hercuckslqve, and ucanefher! What a wild ride. You're both very good at articulating the intensity of being replaced. I squirm in a delightfully painful way hearing it. I find myself very aroused by both of your journeys.
I too enjoy some level of being replaced, but I don't have the strength and courage to push her towards full replacement, nor would I want to lose my best friend and love of my life permanently. My wife makes no apologies for having replaced my smaller dick for her BF's much more fulfilling and superior Cock. And it isn't just his Cock. That's actually just a shallow symbol considering what he means to her, to me, and the implications it's had in our relationship . She cares for him.
At one point, before I knew of her affair, she actually fell in love with him, and told him she would leave me for him in a heartbeat (man, that was a punch in the gut learning she was that close to fully replacing me, and yet arousing at the same time). Our relationship was not well at the time. We had neglected one another, spent barely any time together, took each other for granted, resentment bloomed...we became virtual room mates that saw each other in passing. It was no wonder she was not only very sexually attracted to him (he is everything I'm not; tall to my short, muscular to my skinny, well endowed to my smaller side of average endowment, new and exciting to my "same old" place in her life), but filling a romantic void that we had equally abandoned along the way. He was making her feel desired, appreciated, sexy, excited, etc. All the things she was missing from her husband. Not laying the entire blame on myself, it takes 2 to tango, but I wasn't doing anything significant to keep the spark alive, and even I had begun to entertain thoughts of what it might be like to be with someone else, both sexually and romantically.
When the affair came to light, man was that a powerful wake up call! I suddenly realized that my almost 30 year relationship was on life support, and the prognosis wasn't good. This forced us to really lay everything out on the table and become vulnerable with each other. I also suddenly realized there was so much to this woman, my wife, that I barely knew. It rekindled our love for one another, and we both chose to work through things to salvage the relationship.
All that said, there was still the other man, and I had fantasized for most of our relationship of her being with other men. So we worked through the hurt and pain. We spent hours upon hours and days upon days talking, crying and getting to know each other again. And we both acknowledged that we did not want her affair to end. I didn't even push her to get her emotional and romantic feelings for him in check. I told her all that mattered to me was that she love me, and I love her. If she also loved another man, I would support and encourage her relationship with him, and share in her excitement and joy with the new relationship. I would try to love him as well as a part of our relationship (and me a part of theirs). I would accept a co-living situation if she wanted to take her relationship in that direction with him, assuming she also wanted to remain with me. Our rekindled love filled the void our distance had created, but it didn't drive away her romantic and sexual feelings for her boyfriend. It just transformed into a shared arousal through her relationship with her BF. So, in love, there is no replacement, at least not Yet, but she has broadened her love to include her BF.
Sexually, I have been replaced on some levels. We are still intimate sexually, I even get to occasionally be inside of her, but for both of us, that serves 2 purposes;
(a.) Reminds us both why she needs a superior lover
(b.) Primarily an emotional act as opposed to a raw primal sexual act as she experiences with her BF.
I'd say 90% of the time, I am only servicing her orally, and using a better equipped sex toy to help her orgasm for her BF. I encourage her to always be focused on her BF while we play, hence her orgasms are inspired by him, even if it's me doing the physical work to assist her in achieving those climaxes. This keeps our sex life spicier than it's been for most of our 30 year relationship. It works very well for both of us. Her desire is almost singularly focused on him, and it drives my desire through the roof knowing that she's mentally being with him, even though it's physically her & I playing. She also loves how aroused I get knowing this, and how submissive this makes me.
I now long to be submissive to her BF as well. I want to be their cuck. She loves reminding me that he owns her sexually, and that he has open access to her, whenever and however he pleases, while I'm restricted in many ways. We have found several things so far that are reserved only for her BF. He has very limited availability so I actually benefit from this to some degree, but we both long for him to be regularly available to her so she can cut me off further while being fully satisfied by him.
I don't think I could handle being entirely cut off, but the idea of it drives me crazy. I would love for her to push my limits further. I would love to be denied penetration 95% of the time while she's experiencing him inside of her almost daily, but it's an unattainable reality for us as of now. We both want and need that. Hoping she finds another BF sometime soon that is very available to her so we can both experience me losing almost all penetrative access while she gets all she needs from her BF, and I become relegated to cleaning up after him, while jerking off basking in the erotic and intense pain of loss....
