I'm thinking this will be pretty long. There is a lot I want to express both to you people and my diary. It will be great to have documentation on our Journey in the coming months and years.
It was an amazing experience. The question has been answered.......... I am definitely a sexual submissive. To what extent I don't know because this was apparently a baby step in the BDSM world. I want to know my limits.
It's obvious that Frank is an experienced Dom. Couldn't have found a better man to help me experience total submissive surrender and Mike to fulfill his life long fantasies.. It was an Extremely exciting, scary and sexy encounter.
Mike said they agreed at their meeting that Frank could try some new things with me. I trust Mike completely so I didn't ask any questions. I wanted to be surprised. Mike said I would be ok with what he does and have no problem. He said, "Don't worry Carrie, it will be exciting." He was right.
I wasn't quite as nervous this time as the first, but still pretty anxious. I was surprised that Mike wanted me to smoke some marijuana just before Frank arrived. He told me to wear a sexy blouse I have, Bra, and Panties. But this time he wanted me barefoot. I didn't ask why and still don't. I forgot to ask but I will.
We didn't have sex Thursday night nor did we on Tuesday and Wednesday so we were both pretty horny. So I guess the last time was Monday night? Before this reality began, we had sex 2-3 times a week. It was getting to be almost every night when the "Fun" started with Frank.
I was also getting a bit sore and needed some recovery time. That is bound to happen with two Big Cocks and one "Tight little Pussy" (As Frank described it) and sex every day.
We usually have some pot here, but we don't smoke often. Usually with friends, sex occasionally and special occasions like last night. We have friends that over time have made a habit of smoking Pot and we don't want to go there. So like alcohol, it can be addictive so we keep both at a minimum. He knows Pot makes me relaxed, sexier and more adventurous. He confirmed that was the reason. Again, I didn't ask any questions and chose to trust Mike.
On to the evening !
I posed my legs and feet for Mike on the couch again like last time. He directed my posing this time and wanted me to do specific poses for Frank if he commanded me to pose again. lots of toe pointing leg poses even though we know Frank is not a "Footsie Guy" He told Mike at their meeting that my feet are "Cute". I am sure Frank does the "Footsie Stuff" because he knows Mike wants him to.
Mike wanted to know exactly what poses I would do so he can picture me doing them for Frank. My posing really gets Mike turned on and he loves thinking of me performing them for Frank. I have been posing like that for Mike almost since we met.
I had started smoking the pot as I posed for Mike and was feeling sexier and sexier. I smoked right up until Frank arrived. By then I felt just perfect. Not too stoned, just right.
Mike hopes someday we find a real "Footsie Guy" to have sex with me.
Frank did demand me to pose but he included some demands of his own. I'll explain in a minute.
I could tell Mike was excited and nervous, but obviously thrilled that it was happening again. When he left he said, " I love you. Do what he tells you and everything will be alright. Make it good for him Carrie. Give him the best sex he's ever had." I said, "I will." Then he left.
I knew what Mike meant by give him the best sex he's ever had. I move my hips in a certain way and I can make Mike cum pretty much when I want to. If he or I want to speed things up I can usually make him cum. It's hard to describe the movements. I push my hips up into him and also move them in a circular motion. I also have some control of the muscles in my Vagina and can kind of squeeze his cock at the same time.
I also give oral in a certain way that Mike loves. It's how I move my tongue. That's what he meant by "Make it good for him" Frank commented during oral last time how much he liked how I sucked his cock and even said something like it was, "the best he'd ever had."
It really excites Mike when I described exactly what I did to Frank in those and other ways
I love giving a man oral and hearing his deep masculine moans of pleasure. That's why I'm good at it. I LOVE it. ( I don't like the term Blowjob for some reason so I rarely use it). I am a Lady and call it, "Oral Sex"
Frank commented on the candles and music last time so I thought I would set that kind of environment again. He said he liked everything last time. I lit lots of small candles again in the foyer, living room and bedroom. I had the Tantirc Sex music playing of course. That music is a strong aphrodisiac for me. No incense this time but I wish I had. Next time I will use incense and I will explain why later.
I felt very feminine and vulnerable the entire time. I love feeling that way. Those feelings in reality are magnified 100 times more than I have ever felt them in fantasy or role play with Mike. Just his presence makes me tremble from the minute he pulls into the driveway.
That's not love.....it's pure erotic lust.
I had just finished the pot in the pipe when Frank arrived pretty much on time. He was wearing another great looking Tommy Bahama shirt and linen slacks (The Florida Man Look). As I said before, he's not handsome in the Brad Pitt kind of way, (Mike is much better looking) but tall and very masculine. His confidence, assertiveness and take charge manner is what's really sexy to me. His physical size and obvious strength makes me feel small and helpless.
Mike and I like to refer to this as a play so it doesn't seem quite so serious and scary. Frank plays his part perfectly in our Fantasy/Reality Drama. He is the perfect "Prop"/ actor for our sex play. His part is the dangerous guy that makes me feel submissive and fucks me any way he wants. He's the "Bad Guy" in the play who fucks Mike's little wife. That's what turns on Mike and now me too.
He is an Alpha Male for sure although he didn't project that when I first met him at the party a few weeks ago. Actually I think it's a persona he takes on when he arrives.
This time he was in character the second he was in the door. No small talk at all. He just said hello and told me to just stand there for a minute. He began to slowly look me over from head to toe. He told me to slowly turn around and looked at me from behind. I could almost feel his eyes on my body. I was already experiencing butterflies and a jolts of adrenalin.
After a minute he looked at me directly in the eyes and said, "If you do everything I say everything will be fine. Don't talk unless I ask you a question. Now turn around." It was intimidating but so sexy.
I turned my back to him and I could hear him taking something from what sounded like his pocket.
All of a sudden I could feel something coming over my head then everything went Dark !! I made a gasp. I was blindfolded. Total shock. He tied it tight but it wasn't uncomfortable.
He said, " Don't touch or take this off until I tell you to, understand?" I answered with a simple, "yes I understand." in my best quiet little girl voice. It was total darkness, not even a hint of light. I almost lost my balance and just kind of fell slightly back into his arms.
I've tried blindfolds to help me sleep (not sexual situations) and I remember seeing glimpses of light. This was total darkness.
He was still behind me and he took my shoulders. He guided me slowly back to the bedroom. I could see absolutely nothing and all he said was, " I can't wait to fuck you." as he guided me toward the bedroom. Another Jolt of adrenalin. I felt like a helpless young girl about to be forced.
3 minutes in the door and I'm immediately feeling totally submissive. I was tingling in my vagina and getting wet.
There are so many subtle things he did this time that if I wrote every move or sensation I'd be writing for hours, so I will stay with the big ideas with some detail. Impossible to describe every feeling and sensation unless I want to put you and me both to sleep. It would be tedious for me to write and you guys to read.
When we got to the bedroom he was standing behind me and I could sense that we were near the bed. He reached over my shoulders and slowly unbuttoned and took off the blouse. He unhooked the bra and let it drop to the floor. Then he slid down my panties and helped me step out of them.
Next he began gently touching my shoulders and neck. He breathed in my ear and kissed it. It gave me chills. He was also kissing, then nibbling on my shoulders. Suddenly he made a full bite on my upper shoulder. Just enough that it wasn't painful but a little painful in a good way. Enough to probably have left a temporary mark. It was another feeling of shock.
Then his hands moved down to my breasts and began, very gently to move his fingers in a slow circular motion around my entire breasts and then around my nipples. They were hard and he gently caressed them with his fingers. The sensations were so intense. I was so aware of his breathing and could feel his breath on my skin.
He then slowly moved his hands down my stomach and my groin area. Then finally my clitoris and then vagina. I am leaving out a lot of detail here, but I'm sure you get the idea.
Again, the music was so damn sexy ! Sexier than ever. I know now after talking with Mike that the blindfold intensified my other senses. Hearing, smell, touch etc. The Pot was also really making it different.
He sat me down on the bed. I could hear his zipper come down he pulled his cock out. He took my hand and placed it on his cock. It was super hard and seemed much bigger in the dark. I began to massage mostly the sensitive place, but also moved my hand all around and explored it in the dark. It was warm and really hard. I was really wet by then. I love his cock.
After a good couple minutes, he suddenly said, "Suck my Cock and make it good"
I did it exactly like the first time. I described the first time in my post after the first episode.
He pulled it out of my mouth when he seemed like he was getting close to cumming. He was obviously holding till later. He told me to lay back on the bed and he said, "Make me want to fuck you."
I assumed he meant pose. I began to do the exact poses Mike wanted me to emphasizing my feet and legs. After 5 minutes or so, he said, "Pretty Feet but now I'm going to tell you what to do." He paid almost no attention to my feet other than that comment.
Next he in fact did begin to direct my posing.
He said, "lay on your back, pull your knees up and spread your legs like I am fucking you." Then he said, "touch yourself and move your hips like I am fucking you." I've never even done that for Mike. I was still blindfolded and began to rub my clit and move like I was being fucked. I really got into it. I started to moan softly. I'm beginning to really like it when Frank (and Mike) get turned on looking at my body. It makes me feel sexy.
I really liked it. Knowing he was watching me, not seeing his reactions but hearing him say quietly things like "Damn, wow" and "I am going to fuck you so hard." I loved showing him my body and knowing I was driving him crazy. It inspired me to be as sexy as I could possibly be. That went on for about 10 minutes. At one point I was close to cumming.
Next he grabbed me with both hands and pretty much manhandled me to the edge of the bed like I was a rag doll and weighed nothing. Super strong guy. I was in doggie position, on my knees with just my feet hanging over the edge. He reached around, took my hand and put something in it. "It's a vibrator" he said. Use it when I tell you to."
Then, almost immediately he said, "This is just going to be a Doggie Fuck, not anal." That's exactly what I thought he was going to do. I almost stopped everything but he quickly assured it was not Anal before I did.
Our bed was the perfect height. He positioned my hips, standing behind me. Suddenly I felt a slap on my ass. It was more of a total shock than painful. I did not expect it at all.
Then he slapped me again and this time it stung. He slapped it a third time and it hurt even more. The fourth time was really hard and it stung like crazy. It was a loud slap........ I let out a girly gasp!
I said, "please not that hard." But he ignored me and quickly hit me even harder a fifth time then said, "I'll stop for now." I think he wanted to re-affirm his dominance. I was ok with that as long as there wasn't a sixth hard slap.
We failed to establish a "Safe Word" as several of you recommended. There will be one from now on.
Surprisingly the pain was kind of erotic and I kind of liked it. Jury still out on allowing that again, but not out of the question. Didn't know pain could give me sexual sensations.
He grabbed my hips, controlled them then inserted his cock ( I was so wet by then it went in easily.) It felt so good. He began thrusting slowly and deep. He said, "use the vibrator." he instructed me how to turn it on and use it. It was heavenly. Right from the pain of the slaps to absolute pleasure. I could still feel the sting but it actually enhanced the feelings.
This was totally new and I loved it. His cock thrusting deep inside me felt awesome, but the vibrator made a huge difference. Mike and I will definitely be doing this from now on. We rarely did Doggie before. We have used a vibrator but not that way.
After a while he thrust his cook really hard and deep and I had a powerful orgasm. A long and very intense. orgasm. It was fantastic! He kept thrusting as I came. Didn't like Doggie much before but I like it now. Mike and I did it (minus the slaps and vibrator) during our "After Party" last night. Mike said, "We will be buying a small vibrator like that." We use a larger "Dildo type "vibrator.
Next he literally flipped me over on my back and told me to pull my knees up. He told me to use the vibrator again and began fucking me in the missionary position allowing enough room for my arm and hand to use the vibrator. After several minutes of slow thrusting he pushed my hand aside, came down on me. I pulled my knees higher and pressed my heels into his butt. Automatic toe point (Mike loves that detail).
After a few thrusts he grabbed my throat and drove his cock really hard and deep inside me and I had my second strong orgasm. Almost as powerful as the first. I was convulsing a little. Involuntary muscle spasms I get with real powerful G spot orgasms. I don't know how else to describe them but spasms or convulsions.
The choking was not a shock because Mike has chocked me before but not hard. Frank's choke wasn't a real hard choke either but it definitely contributed to the orgasm because I didn't expect it.
Then he finally had a powerful orgasm and again let go deep inside. I loved his deep, masculine groan of pleasure. I kept moving my hips until he was finished.
He continued to lay on me with his cock inside as if resting for a couple minutes. He said nothing but was breathing hard near my ear.. Then he removed the blindfold. The light was a shock even though there was just candle light.
After another minute he abruptly got off me and we started to dress. I just put the blouse back on. There was sperm or vaginal fluid or both running down inside my thigh.
He said, "You were fantastic and a perfect little Sub." Then I said , "And you are an awesome and very sexy teacher." (neither of us referred to the other as a Lover) I'm his little Subbie and he is my "Evil Teacher."
We didn't discuss anything, not even the slaps. I didn't want to ruin the moment. It went too well and the spanking was no big deal as it turned out.
We walked to the front door, him leading the way. I did comment that , "It seems like you plan what you do to me. There seems to be a flow, almost choreographed." He confirmed that he plans our sessions to avoid awkward moments, mistakes and doing things not agreed upon. This guy, no doubt is experienced at rough fantasy sex.
He turned near the door and gave me a nice little kiss. He said, "I hope we do this again" I said, "Absolutely, it was very sexy and fun." Off he went.
Seems weird that we hardly talk at all. I had nice conversations with Frank when we met the first three times before the sex started. He now has a totally different demeanor . He did not come off as an Alpha then. Now we barely converse and he is definitely an Alpha Male. That's best for the current situation but seems a little strange. To be that intimate with a man and have almost no conversation is really different for me.
The entire session lasted at least 1.5 hours and maybe a little more. Who keeps time in situations like this? Mike knew it would last that long before he left so he wasn't concerned or surprised.
I called Mike immediately and he was home in 10 minutes or less. I already had a glass of wine in my hand and the pot had worn off by then. (the pot was a great idea that definitely enhanced the experience) He said, "I love you" hugged and kissed me asked me if I was ok. When I assured him I was ok, he wanted to get right to the details.
But first I wanted to know where he went. This time he went to Lowes and Home Depot to look for some things for the house and check out some new pool furniture. He also went to Best Buy. He loves to go there and look at the electronic stuff. He's always "Threatening" to buy a new TV and sound system.
He said he was kind of wandering around in a fog thinking more about me than the stuff he was looking at. He ran into a guy he knows and had a conversation. Mike said, "He probably thinks I've gone crazy because I kept repeating myself and I'm sure I seemed confused." Last he stopped at the local bar for a drink and a few cigarettes. ( He had some left in the car from last week's date.) He was at the bar only a half hour before I called.
Again we held off on the sex until I was almost through the "Juicy Details" I described the entire encounter and he asked questions for way over an hour. There was so much to describe and questions to answer.
We had short, but great sex. I really enjoyed the sex but didn't cum. He absolutely "Exploded" about a minute after he entered me. We held each other for awhile and slowly fell asleep. The last thing he said was, "Thank you for doing this Carrie. I have my Baby back" I just smiled and gave him a kiss. He is such a sweet man.
We were both emotionally exhausted and I was physically exhausted as well.
This will most definitely NOT be the last time ! Frank is NOT out of a job. We are both having fun ! Why did I resist this for 6 years? Mike was right, this is exciting.
**If there are any women reading my posts, it would be great if you would comment on what I write. Your suggestions, observations, criticisms both positive and negative. Maybe questions? I always try to answer questions or comments.
I know I'm being redundant, but being able to express this to people who understand is wonderful. I can say whatever I want because I am anonymous here and I get immediate honest feedback and advice with no worries. I found this forum at just the right time. Thank you guys.
We're going out for breakfast.
Carrie
(Please remember that I haven't read all the of your posts) 
