Hotwife going out alone/why is it too difficult for me?

[mrs_reese]

So it’s update time.
First of all, again I am sorry for my delay!
It’s still all about the effort to write at times, and I find myself too busy most of the day!

Thanks to all who shared those comments, I really enjoy reading everyone’s comments.

The trainer, or should I say trainee!
Thats how I feel when we are together!
It’s been a real struggle for both of us!

I wish I had some good stuff to share with you all but I don’t!

Last workout I asked him to walk me to my vehicle.
Since spring is here it’s not completely dark outside and he’s terrible nervous about being caught in the parking lot!
There are no restrictions about dating clients I’ve learned btw!
I kissed him last time!
I made the move!
I asked him to come closer to me and as he approached I put my arms over his shoulders and pulled him close to me and kissed him. He’s such a great kisser!
But he pulled away after a few seconds, like maybe 3?
I asked him what is wrong and
he said it just doesn’t feel right!
I was very annoyed! Honestly!
I’m putting myself out there and he pulls away??
I left and didn’t go back to workouts until yesterday.
We had no conversations since that last moment!

Awkward yesterday? Yes for both of us.
While assisting me, he told me many times how sexy I look and that he’s sorry many times bc he freaked out!

I told him it’s ok and don’t overthink things.
I also told him that I won’t expect anything from him and I’m sorry if I was too pushy!
I told him to focus on workouts with me.

I left as another appointment was waiting for him- yes a cute younger girl. Even though I honestly look amazing, I still felt a little frustrated when she came in the room for her session.

Guess what happened?
He texted me last night and informed me he wants another chance- meet for drinks again!
I’m leaving for vacation tomorrow am for 5 days w hubby.
So he’ll have to wait I guess!

Like I said, nothing exciting to write about!

[mrs_reese]

That is neither good nor bad, nor is it a reflection on you. It is simply who he is.

Z

I know…. I’m not freaking out!
I’m going to just let things be as they are and not act desperate!

[venus-can99]

Thanks for the update mrs_reese and hope you have a wonderful relaxing holiday. Maybe third time is the charm? Three strikes and he is out? Hopefully he has sometime to reflect and grow a pair by the time you are back from vacay...

[BallSpanking]

... It reminds me of the exchange between Dustin Hoffman and Anne Bancroft upon the imminent seduction in 'The Graduate' :

BEN
Mrs. Robinson - I can't do this.
MRS. ROBINSON
You what?
BEN
This is all terribly wrong.
MRS. ROBINSON
Benjamin - do you find me undesirable?
BEN
Oh no, Mrs. Robinson. I think -
I think you're the most attractive of all my parents' friends.
I just don't think we could possibly --
MRS. ROBINSON
Are you afraid of me?
BEN
No - but look - maybe we could do something else together,
Mrs. Robinson - would you like to go to a movie.
MRS. ROBINSON
Benjamin, is this your first time?
BEN
Is this - what?
MRS. ROBINSON
It is, isn't it? It is your first time.
BEN
That's a laugh, Mrs. Robinson.
That's really a laugh. Ha ha.
MRS. ROBINSON
You can admit that, can't you?
BEN
Are you kidding?
MRS. ROBINSON
It's nothing to be ashamed of -
BEN
Wait a minute!
MRS. ROBINSON
On your first time -
BEN
Who said it was my first time.
MRS. ROBINSON
That you're afraid -
BEN
Wait a minute.
MRS. ROBINSON
- of being - inadequate - I mean
just because you happen to be
inadequate in one way -
BEN
... INADEQUATE!
LONG pause.
MRS. ROBINSON
(starting to dress)
BEN
Don't move.
He slams the bathroom door shut.
The light in the room disappears.
FADE OUT

[BallSpanking]

Have a lovely vacation, Mrs Reese. Mr Reese should be happy.

[mrs_reese]

... It reminds me of the exchange between Dustin Hoffman and Anne Bancroft upon the imminent seduction in 'The Graduate' :

BEN
Mrs. Robinson - I can't do this.
MRS. ROBINSON
You what?
BEN
This is all terribly wrong.
MRS. ROBINSON
Benjamin - do you find me undesirable?
BEN
Oh no, Mrs. Robinson. I think -
I think you're the most attractive of all my parents' friends.
I just don't think we could possibly --
MRS. ROBINSON
Are you afraid of me?
BEN
No - but look - maybe we could do something else together,
Mrs. Robinson - would you like to go to a movie.
MRS. ROBINSON
Benjamin, is this your first time?
BEN
Is this - what?
MRS. ROBINSON
It is, isn't it? It is your first time.
BEN
That's a laugh, Mrs. Robinson.
That's really a laugh. Ha ha.
MRS. ROBINSON
You can admit that, can't you?
BEN
Are you kidding?
MRS. ROBINSON
It's nothing to be ashamed of -
BEN
Wait a minute!
MRS. ROBINSON
On your first time -
BEN
Who said it was my first time.
MRS. ROBINSON
That you're afraid -
BEN
Wait a minute.
MRS. ROBINSON
- of being - inadequate - I mean
just because you happen to be
inadequate in one way -
BEN
... INADEQUATE!
LONG pause.
MRS. ROBINSON
(starting to dress)
BEN
Don't move.
He slams the bathroom door shut.
The light in the room disappears.
FADE OUT

Exactly

[mrs_reese]

Hello everyone,
As I told a dear friend today, I don’t feel that spark with the trainer man child, he’s gorgeous but too young and insecure!
I just think I’m too much!
Out of the blue, I received a text from jeff- asking how I’m doing! I am thinking of texting back.
As confused as he was about me and my choices, I do miss our sex!
I need something to spark me!

[venus-can99]

That's a good sign IMO. Communicating with him should help with the spark

[BallSpanking]

... I am not sure if you want to look at re-treads too closely ... Of course Jeff is into you, but he can't handle you for more deep-seated reasons. He wants all of you, and does not know how to keep from expecting more than he gets.
I don't know, Mrs Reese, I think I get your reasons for impatience, but there is someone much more fine waiting for you out there that fulfills ALL your requirements.

[zoe]

Sorry to make light of this, but an image of you being ravished screaming "spark me baby" just leaped into my mind.

Z

[mrs_reese]

... I am not sure if you want to look at re-treads too closely ... Of course Jeff is into you, but he can't handle you for more deep-seated reasons. He wants all of you, and does not know how to keep from expecting more than he gets.
I don't know, Mrs Reese, I think I get your reasons for impatience, but there is someone much more fine waiting for you out there that fulfills ALL your requirements.

I agree!
But I’m also seeking something non complicated and fun!
Jeff was that, I just wanted more from him!
Just sayin

[BallSpanking]

Have a lovely workout today ...

[jeanniekeith]

It's all about separating "love" from fucking. I make love to my husband. I fuck other men. Even though I'll kiss and be very intimate with another guy, the love is reserved just for my husband. He knows this. Most of the experiences we've had, he's been present and watching or participating. Even encouraging me. On the rare occasions that I'm alone with another man, I tell my husband in advance. I don't ask for "permission" although he would give it anyway. That's how we are with each other. When I get home, I tell him every detail. This works well for us and adds to our marriage. We have complete trust in each other.

[Farmgirl]

It's all about separating "love" from fucking. I make love to my husband. I fuck other men. Even though I'll kiss and be very intimate with another guy, the love is reserved just for my husband. He knows this. Most of the experiences we've had, he's been present and watching or participating. Even encouraging me. On the rare occasions that I'm alone with another man, I tell my husband in advance. I don't ask for "permission" although he would give it anyway. That's how we are with each other. When I get home, I tell him every detail. This works well for us and adds to our marriage. We have complete trust in each other.

For me, it's about love and fucking. The love, the attachment, makes the sex so much better, for some of us .

[jeanniekeith]

It's all about separating "love" from fucking. I make love to my husband. I fuck other men. Even though I'll kiss and be very intimate with another guy, the love is reserved just for my husband. He knows this. Most of the experiences we've had, he's been present and watching or participating. Even encouraging me. On the rare occasions that I'm alone with another man, I tell my husband in advance. I don't ask for "permission" although he would give it anyway. That's how we are with each other. When I get home, I tell him every detail. This works well for us and adds to our marriage. We have complete trust in each other.

For me, it's about love and fucking. The love, the attachment, makes the sex so much better, for some of us .

I totally understand where you coming from there!

[mrs_reese]

It's all about separating "love" from fucking. I make love to my husband. I fuck other men. Even though I'll kiss and be very intimate with another guy, the love is reserved just for my husband. He knows this. Most of the experiences we've had, he's been present and watching or participating. Even encouraging me. On the rare occasions that I'm alone with another man, I tell my husband in advance. I don't ask for "permission" although he would give it anyway. That's how we are with each other. When I get home, I tell him every detail. This works well for us and adds to our marriage. We have complete trust in each other.

Thanks for sharing!
My hubby is more complicated as he loves the intrigue of knowing I’m sharing myself with another man that I am super attracted to allowing me to push past the walls and go to the edge as he likes to say.
I also share all the details I remember with him.
As you said, I don’t need to ask for permission, but hubby knows he owns my heart!

[mrs_reese]

It's all about separating "love" from fucking. I make love to my husband. I fuck other men. Even though I'll kiss and be very intimate with another guy, the love is reserved just for my husband. He knows this. Most of the experiences we've had, he's been present and watching or participating. Even encouraging me. On the rare occasions that I'm alone with another man, I tell my husband in advance. I don't ask for "permission" although he would give it anyway. That's how we are with each other. When I get home, I tell him every detail. This works well for us and adds to our marriage. We have complete trust in each other.

For me, it's about love and fucking. The love, the attachment, makes the sex so much better, for some of us .

I’m like you farmgirl, I enjoy the thrill of another man wanting me but I like to feel love also.
Luv you girl!

[mrs_reese]

It’s been very quiet for me!
I know that’s boring on this thread lol.
I’m kind of resetting.
Hubby and I have spent many amazing nights together as we seem to enjoy talking about some of my lovers.
He always tells me that I’ve provided enough fuel for his fire to last a lifetime.
I also have some intense O’s thinking about those memories.

[venus-can99]

Sometimes the quiet moments of reflection and memories from your exciting adventures of the past are as interesting (at least to me ) as your description of hotwife encounters

[mrs_reese]

Sometimes the quiet moments of reflection and memories from your exciting adventures of the past are as interesting (at least to me ) as your description of hotwife encounters

Yes! Exactly! When I spend some time alone with my thoughts, it still intrigues me, or when hubby relives some of those moments when we are having sex- makes us both lose ourselves in the moment

[BallSpanking]

When I spend some time alone with my thoughts, it still intrigues me, or when hubby relives some of those moments when we are having sex- makes us both lose ourselves in the moment.

That is beautiful.